I’m laying it all out for you today. I’m in a big, big rut. Like so big.
But it’s true, isn’t it? If you want something bad enough then you’ll find a way to do it?
I’ve repeated that sentence to myself over and over again this past week, just trying to let those individual words seep into my brain. It seems lately I’ve been feeling a little overwhelmed with everything I want to do, or should be doing, or need to be doing. The hours in the day seem to go by so quickly and, just like always, there never seems to be enough of them. Ever. The to-do lists keeps growing, and the energy that goes into thinking about them seems to grow even more than the lists themselves.
I need to get caught up at work.
My house needs to be cleaned.
Those storage rooms need to be tackled.
My dog needs to be walked.
I want to spend more time doing fun things with Todd.
I need to start eating better.
My car needs to be cleaned.
I have to go to the gym (and stay there).
I really want more time to blog.
I should make a dentist appointment.
I want to finish that book that’s been sitting on my night table.
I would love to watch my favourite show right now.
I really need to stay in touch better with friends who are away.
I need to start learning how to use my DSLR camera.
Those empty picture frames that have been sitting there for a year really need pictures.
But , I just wish I could relax.
Oh, that list. It really could continue on forever and forever. You know what I’m talking about, right? Please say yes. I’m even exhausted just typing that thing.
I’m getting sick of hearing myself say that I don’t have enough time because again, it goes back to that saying. If I want it bad enough, I’ll find a way. I obviously wanted to start watching the new show, Orange Is The New Black this week, and guess what? I did (and loooved what I’ve watched so far). I also wanted to clean my room this week, but guess what? I didn’t. Why? Because obviously I didn’t want it bad enough (can ya really blame me though?).
Sometimes I think about the future. A future that involves little feet running around
But I didn’t come here today to vent, although that does help a little! Instead this was just a little pep talk for myself (and any others who may be needing one) to start making the most out of my time and start getting shiz done. I have to remember that everything doesn’t have to be an “all or nothing” type of task, because a little bit truly does go a long way. If I don’t want to take out an entire Saturday to clean my house, well then I should try and do a little bit each night. If I don’t have an hour to walk Charley one evening, well a half hour or even twenty minutes is better than nothing. And if I don’t have time to tackle the spare rooms, well then I’ll just continue to shut the door and pretend that I don’t have a Monica Geller kind of closet going on in there!
So, that’s (gonna be) my motto and I’m sticking to it. Can I get an amen?
this reminds me of that someecard that is like "i have so much shit to do so I think i'll take a nap" or something along those lines and it can be SO me sometimes! I'm not good with lists– meaning they don't seem to motivate me like they do other people, and sometimes when I have SO much in my brain I'm trying to do I end up not doing ANY of it or I don't do any of it all the way through if that makes sense and it's so frustrating so I know how you're feeling!
I just watched orange is the new black as well! I looooved the first part of it but then got kind of bored by the end– I think it was only because I watched it all in like a three day span though & could have used a break! haha
if i didn't prioritize things, my day would go to shit. for real. the length of your list could be overwhelming you so prioritize that list and then only work on #1-5 for the day.
for me, i schedule things which helps a lot. i get into the office early so if i need to get shit out by 9am, i work on those first. if not, i take 7am-9am strictly for blog reading/comment responding etc. no one gets in here until 9am anyway so i'm in the clear.
then during the day, i work on work stuff.
every wed, i do a load of laundry to avoid the mountain of laundry if i left if just for the weekend. meals for the week are planned on friday evenings and shopping for the week done on saturdays.
i have to schedule stuff like this otherwise i'd go crazy!
kathy
Vodka and Soda
I usually try to commit to doing ONE little thing each day (in terms of cleaning/organizing). For instance, clean one bathroom. Or do one load of laundry. Or vacuum. This obviously doesn't always happen, but that's when I use my Saturdays and Sundays to catch up and clean as much as I can. I love lists too, especially because I can put it on the list and forget until I look at it again…but don't commit to too many changes at once or you will feel overwhelmed!! 🙂
We watched Orange is the New Black in the summer…can't wait for Season 2. 🙂
I totally agree with you. When I was in school, I was also working, full time. Meanwhile, everyone else was going to parties and making new friends. I was working, doing homework, taking care of my apartment (I was also living on my own). I'd go to class Monday morning and everyone would talk about the awesome weekend they had while my weekend consisted of work and more work.
So, I made a change.
I moved onto campus. I spent more time working in the summer so I could use the money for rent during the school months (thereby work less hours while at school). I was able to go to the parties with everyone else that way, catch up on TV shows and still do well in school.
I found my way. Sometimes it takes time to find it but if you want it bad enough, you will. 🙂
"I have to remember that everything doesn't have to be an "all or nothing" type of task, because a little bit truly does go a long way." YES! I had originally planned to clean all damn day today but then I realized I just wanted to relax. So, I got rid of the clutter and tomorrow I'll do the dusting and vacuuming. Gotta break stuff up every once in a while!
AMEN!!!! This is exactly what I needed to hear today. I am alwayssss an all or nothing person. It is so silly. We should do what we can, when we can, and not feel bad if we are doing our best. Love this post 🙂
I can SO identify with your listing all the things you need to be doing and then the I wish I could just relax. That cycle is me!! And you're so right, it's about what you really WANT to do and how BAD you want to do it. Everything may be on the list but then everything is assigned an unspoken priority. Funny how that works, huh? Hope you get to a place where you can "relax." 🙂 When you do, it's so so nice.
Happy Weekend to you! And I just noticed all your GFC followers! Look at you! I remember meeting you when before you even shared it with your fam. Yay you!
You and me both sister. Each line of this post had me nodding and saying, "ME TOO!" I think as women we tend to put too much on ourselves. We have to remember we are human, not superhuman and we don't have to get it ALL done. To-do lists are great to help me organize my mind, but then I have to remember not everything on that to-do list has to be completed right away. Even though I'd like it better if it was. Ugh, I could talk about this all day. But you are not alone! Hope it gets better for you love muffin! XOXO
Amen girl! I have felt this way a little too much all last year. I am working on finding more balance this year and cutting myself some slack when i need a little veggie out time too. Doing a little bit at a time has helped.